Loneliness, one of the worst feelings in this world. Sitting in the dark all by yourself in the wee hours of night gently crying. Nobody knows what's going on with you. How could anybody realize what's happening? Everybody you know is resting peacefully in their bed awaiting the new day tomorrow. But for you, there's no difference in the days. They pass by monotonously and before you know its all gone. Walking down an empty street, listening to the sound of your own footsteps. Sometimes you aren't sure if you are walking towards something or you are just walking away. I have often spent nights awake listening to the rain, talking to my heart & trying to explain why do I have such an intense attachment which never allows me to leave someone.. set myself free ..
For nights which I have slept, I have always felt a strange fear going to bed, because I know right when I start to open my eyes ..and am about to feel happy .. I realize the reality.. and that pain nearly swallows me whole..
When someone you love dies, and you're not expecting it, you don't lose them all at once; you lose them in pieces over a long time - their voice no more seems to be calling for you and their scents fade away from their clothes in their closets & drawers. Sometimes you come across a missing part that overwhelms you with the feelings that they're gone forever, then comes another day, and another specifically missing part.
Nishant, I can see the time you posted this tells every thing wht you want to say. You know thts one thing which only that person can understand. What I want to say is , there is another way to lead life and when you are in pain just think who is in more pain than you. Looking at them you will understand and your pain will sooth.
ReplyDeleteHey Manish ..thnks for replying.. although i hv changed d time stamp now..bt i hv spent lot of sleepless nights.. thnks for ur concern buddy :)
ReplyDeletedost just remember our days what all crime v commited em sure ull smile for that :)
ReplyDeleteHey Sunil..i never thought you will come n see this.. thanks for your comment :) .. things are going from bad to worst.. no matter how honest i am or was. i have lost .. i have no hopes left :(
ReplyDeleteu know dear nobdy in this world can cab have everything that he thinks its all ones luck and destiny tht decides wat is in his cup of life so dnt be dishearted look the other way of life and enjoy the other things y i know its very dificult to forget those hel things but u have to dear and say to your heart all is well all will be fine dude trust me yar
ReplyDeleteHey Manas, hows you? thanks for the comment dear..
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