Loneliness, one of the worst feelings in this world. Sitting in the dark all by yourself in the wee hours of night gently crying. Nobody knows what's going on with you. How could anybody realize what's happening? Everybody you know is resting peacefully in their bed awaiting the new day tomorrow. But for you, there's no difference in the days. They pass by monotonously and before you know its all gone. Walking down an empty street, listening to the sound of your own footsteps. Sometimes you aren't sure if you are walking towards something or you are just walking away. I have often spent nights awake listening to the rain, talking to my heart & trying to explain why do I have such an intense attachment which never allows me to leave someone.. set myself free ..
For nights which I have slept, I have always felt a strange fear going to bed, because I know right when I start to open my eyes ..and am about to feel happy .. I realize the reality.. and that pain nearly swallows me whole..
When someone you love dies, and you're not expecting it, you don't lose them all at once; you lose them in pieces over a long time - their voice no more seems to be calling for you and their scents fade away from their clothes in their closets & drawers. Sometimes you come across a missing part that overwhelms you with the feelings that they're gone forever, then comes another day, and another specifically missing part.
